Reflections

Sometimes we need to go back to the beginning. The beginning when it all started, we we made the decision to be strong and useful. Parkour just being another tool, another way for us to interact with our bodies. For body and mind to become a ying yang, harmony with oneself. But as susceptible as I was when I discovered this movement I wanted to use this discipline as a money make, to become famous. I was fourteen then and I didn't have the discipline then, but I had the drive. Though, my drive wasn't enough. Years past and I'm now 20 and I finally have the drive and the discipline to learn, to find my true self as I continue my way, path, and purpose in life. I started training last year, but it was off and on, vault here or roll there. I wasn't serious. It didn't help that my mind was in a horrendous place at the time. Since February/March of this year, I have been diligently training, because there was a obstacle I wasn't sure how or if I could overcome it. In February, something had happened, that I do not care to repeat on this blog. This 'event' caused me to have a huge mental block. I didn't want to do anything but harm myself, by eating mostly. I had and still do have nightmares about this 'event' and that tries to cause me to eat massive amounts of food. After about a month of causing my body and mind harm I decided that being lazy and useless was stupid. That's when my spark came back to train. This mental block battles me every second of every day. Though with my training I overcome it everyday.

I've realized in these past months more about myself than I have since I discovered parkour six years ago. It's opened my eyes and has caused me to reflect back on the past years. Made me realize that parkour is my purpose, other than what God has planned out for me as well. Parkour is what I've been looking for, it's my comfort food for my mind, body, and soul. It teaches me things that most people cannot teach me, about life, myself, just everything in general. Movement is what I'm about and promoting positivity, being healthy and fit, strong and useful.

Discovering oneself and reflecting on the past is what a part of parkour is about, at least to me it is. It's about filling that part of your soul that was and has been missing for sometime now. So, fellow traceurs and traceuses, I say you should reflect back at your old self and look at your new self and realize, understand, that most of us are striving for the same thing. We have similar purposes for relflection, so do it. You will learn more about yourself, your true self.


God Bless.

Ashley McCauley